Yes folks it has been a long time since my last entry, I didn't say though that I was religiously post every day into this. Even though I should do really as it would help me to clear my mind of the days thoughts that would otherwise churn away in my head and stopping me from sleeping, hence this entry this morning.
Yet again I find that my mind isn't being stimulated enough so I no longer feel tired so I start to sleep less and less until I get to the stage where headaches creep in warning me that I'm over tired. Maybe I should stop being on the computer so late at night.
Also what tends to keep me awake or make me wake with a jump is the vivid images that I see, I know that they are not real but they look so real. Am I linked to the computer on a subconscious level? Or is there something more deep rooted going on? I hope not.
Enough of me wallowing in self pity, I promised myself that this blog wasn't going to turn into one of those ones where I feel sorry for myself because I'm stuck in a job where I am no longer stimulated and the pay is ridiculously low for someone of my age.
I have many people tell me why don't you quit your job and find something that you want to do and get paid well for doing. But there is a flaw to that plan and that is financial commitments, yes its the biggest ball and chain you are ever going to wear in your life. It is such a driving factor, you cannot do anything without money, which is a shame really.
I would like to live in the Star Trek world where you no longer need currency to get what you want, where currency is no longer the driving force of the human race.
I could go on forever with this entry and bore you senseless with my random ramblings, so guess what for a change I'm going to do just that, well not forever, I don't want to be tied to the computer forever, that's just plain stupid, possibly carry on rambling until I fall asleep at the keyboard.
But then funnier things have happened.
I'm just wondering as I type this, I keep getting some wierd link pop up where the draft and publish buttons should be. Maybe I'm going too fast for the computer.
It may be sometime before my next entry with all of this outpouring my mind will be blank for some time, so if you see me wondering around the streets like a zombie you will know why.
Ok now on to Christmas, for once I had a very good relaxing christmas, just one glass of wine that unfortunately went straight to my head because I have almost given up alcohol completely and my tolerance is somewhere in Australia.
TTFN
